Transcribe Hornaday, W. T. Letter to Ward, Henry A. (1883-04-18)

generously laid at my door by everybody concerned. I am obliged to neglect my work in the museum in the most </u ruinous > way, and I am constantly worried over that. The time will come when they will call upon me to show up what I have done.

  But for the Society I could spend my evenings &

Sundays in writing for </s chase > cash, or </u finishing my book >. Now if some of you will only tell me how it is that I am ^</u not >^ sacrificing myself right along ^it^.</s I> will console me a good deal. Just </u how > is it all going to help me ? I want to see it., for that would be a real encouragement to me. But one thing is certain: </u nothing > can induce me to be Secretary of the S. A. T. any longer than May 1st. I would not go through this another year for </u any > consideration.. The Society must now do without me or do worse.

    The Lagothrix has put me in a cleft stick so

that from one side or the other I am sure to be squeezed. Prof Goode expressly forbade my putting in any specimen as "Loaned by the U. S. N. M. "for the reason that the Museum has no right to loan anything without a special act of Congress. I </u wanted > to say "Loaned". He told me I could get around th difficulty by saying "Prepared (or Mounted) for the U. S. N. M." etc. The only way I see out of the double-headed difficulty is to make no remark about </u Lagothrix > or </.u Diana > at all, & leave me to run the risk of their complaining here. Darn the Lagothrix. Webster puts it in his list, and does not ask for it of anybody, or say a word about it to me. So I have to run my face for it, and get it as best I can ^ & pack it ^ without thanks from anybody, and